Hi guys, I guess I am just looking for some positive words and a little reassurance if possible. I have dealt with very bad anxiety since age 8 (triggered by many personal things). At that time I was placed on anxiety medication and as a child that did not go well. My anxiety seems to be triggered by any changes, going into anything (for example I have turned down several jobs because my anxiety starts going horribly the minute I am offered anything), and also men (due to many tramatic events). My anxiety became that third unwanted person in my current relationship. I am constantly overthinking and pushing away all the people I love. My only two emotions seem to be anxiety or feeling sad and empty. I went to the doctor ready to give anti depressants another try ( I am 24). It has been almost two weeks on zoloft 25 mg and I am feeling worse than I ever have. I feel more anxious, thinking of ending my life, non stop shaking, and the worst i feel so hopeless. Is it possible for me to ever get better? Will I ever be able to live a happy and healthy life? Will I ever be able to have a healthy relationship without depending on medication? I am currently not seeing any light at the end of the tunnel. Sorry for the book but I feel like discussing it is the only way I feel any relief (I also started therapy but have only had one session so far).Any ideas on how to cope with zoloft or anxiety in general? Thanks guys