You all seem to communicate very openly with your T. When I am journaling I often make lists of topics/issues I want to discuss and explore in therapy. I also seem to have no trouble posting stuff here. However, when I get to a session I never raise any of these issues. I’m not sure if this is because the issues are not all that important and I really don’t need to actually talk about them-- maybe writing about them and exploring them in my journal is enough. Or maybe I am just not comfortable enough with my T to actually talk about these issues. During our sessions we end of talking about something else or my brain just goes blank and I can’t seem to find words to say anything. I don’t know if I really have nothing to say or if it is my way of avoiding topics I am uncomfortable with discussing. I’m really second guessing why I chose to go to therapy…maybe I am just unhappy with my life that this point and just need to pick myself up and move on….maybe I don’t have the ability to engage in meaningful conversation… why do I really want to anyway?. I’m really confused about if I am doing therapy correctly. I’m thinking about stopping therapy.

Sorry I have a session tomorrow and I'm just trying to figure out if I really want to go or not.