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Originally Posted by Bill3
It feels so important to be accepted that you are willing to try being almost any personality or set of personality traits, whatever you judge seems most likely to be accepted by the person or people that you wish to attach to. It seems like there isn't anything fixed or steady about you other than your basic demographic data.
You mentioned therapy before. In what ways do you find therapy helpful and/or unhelpful?
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It does help me to talk. It upsets me when someone disagrees with me so I would rather have a therapist that will just listen to me and not tell me I'm doing something wrong. When someone tells me that it always upsets me, because I already know I do things wrong and I already hate myself for it.
Because a therapist, it's not their job to love you, they aren't supposed to love you, so it doesn't help with that. I need someone to actually love me.
Newborn babies don't love themselves before they are loved, so it is hard to understand why I am expected to love myself first.
This is the way I think it should go.
1.You are loved
2.You love yourself
3.You can love other people
But most people expect me to skip the first part. Some of them actually think I should and it is fair, but some people maybe just know I don't have a choice but to skip it in this world.