I have a lot of worries and anxiety around whether to continue seeing my T or not. I´ve seen her for about half a year now and now we have a summer break for some weeks. I don´t feel any better and I haven´t made any improvements in my life. I´ve managed to study during this six months but I don´t think that was because of therapy and I don´t feel more strength or other improvements.

Because of depression I think part of it is not to give in and on the other hand I often feel my T isn´t the right one. I foremost miss more of an emotional support and I´ve tried several times to tell my T how I like therapy to be but you can´t change how someone is.

As I will be without therapy if I end this current therapy I´m not sure what to do. I can´t pay out of my own pocket and my T has also said earlier on that she doesn´t know what I can do. For me it´s nothing about having insurance, I´m within Swedish public health care, and when referred to one clinic others won´t just accept you just because you want to change therapist.

I´m not sure how to think, just spending time in a therapy that I feel doesn´t give any improvements is just making me feel worse. At the same time, with no therapy at all I´ll perhaps get even worse.