My heart goes out to all.

I am in a weird mixed episode. Hypomanic. Dysphoric mostly, some euphoria now and then.

I am very agitated and very sleep-deprived.
It's been going on for several weeks now.

Sounds are so LOUD. Wow.

I have medical conditions, with severe chronic pain, which gets much worse without sleep, too. It's all getting out of control due to the lack of sleep.

My body is so fatigued and in so much pain, and my mind keeps on going and going and going. My mind isn't obsessing, it's very interested in everything and finds too much quite fascinating.

People do not talk fast enough and it's frustrating to listen. (I am usually so calm, and patient, esp about "listening," this is just so odd.)

It feels like everyone around me talks and does everything in "slow motion."

I take enough meds to euthanize a horse and I sleep an hour each 24 hours. My doc and I have been trying different meds and strategies and it's not been successful. I take so many meds at night, the doctors are afraid to give me any more at night. They don't work for me right now. (I am not worried or obsessing. If I force myself to stay in bed, I stare at the walls or into the darkness without any worry. None. If I have thoughts in the dark, they are creative in nature, interesting. I welcome sleep and a mood shift.)

I start to get tired and then I get a second wind, a third wind, a fourth wind, a fifth wind, and on and on it goes -- for days and weeks, now 6 weeks.

I am very hungry. I am very, very thirsty.

I am craving alcohol, which is very strange. I have never craved alcohol before in my life, ever. No. I won't mix it in with these meds.

Yes, hot, vibrations, heart racing -- and more.

Hope everyone feels better soon!