Thanks for sharing your story. I hope with time, therapy, and lots of self love youll find someone who is right for you. Codependency is no joke. Its also like relying on someone else for happiness. I'm still in my twenties and have gotten through a lot of my codependency, but I still struggle just like anyone else does with their problems. "Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus" is a really good book about boundaries and how men and women need different things in their life. I suggest it to everyone I know who struggles in relationships. After just a couple pages it'll start to change your perspective. Maybe just leave it by the toilet and read a page a day. Good luck to you!!