UGH! That would definitely get the ball rounding in a direct way. I don't think I could do it! I think the fact that I am all tensed up about going tomorrow is not a good sign that I am all better and don't need to go anymore. I've had like 8 sessions now and I just can't chill out and actually talk with her. She is nice, professional, direct, doesn't seem judgmental, seems willing to hear what ever I want to tell her... There is no excuse for it. I really think it is the direct attention that I can't stand, not her personally. It is the fear that I will start a conversation and get uncomfortable and not want to continue it. In a session you can't pass the ball off to someone else or say.. 'excuse me I just saw someone I've been trying to reach all day.. gota go' Logically, I think some of the issues I have are really stupid and if I ever had the guts to express them they would sound even more stupid. However deep down inside I still have them. I think I just really don't want her to know that I am really whacked. Sounds stupid I know.. obviously I'm a nut case otherwise I wouldn't be there in the first place.