Hi, Butterfly, and welcome to PC!
As Chocolatlover said, "Try to relax and just let this place minister to you right now." That is what I have found here with the members of PC.
I had a similar experience on a women's forum before coming here. One prominent member was very vocal and ever-present, and called me bad names and insulted me constantly. I defended myself, but her presence was so pervasive, I just left the site, and then found PC, which is a world of difference. Leaving that forum made me sad and feeling flawed. Here on PC, I found compassion and wisdom from people who have become good friends.
Love
Patty