So struggling with trying to figure out what I want to do and which is not influence by other parts of the mind. In second semester of school and feel like I want to leave. I seem to be always looking for something better to do. Want to work but don't have enough experience in something or my schedule doesn't work. Today I see T and we will probably talk about this, know that a part wants to sabotage my school efforts, so is this her attempt?? Yet I in the most adult mind also think I'd rather be working than doing homework. I am in Graphic Design. I've been stressed out over coming up with designs for every assignment and think I just don't like the whole process of doing it. A few times I know other parts of my mind have helped, but suddenly I am starting to feel kinda depressed. Don't want to do anything. Don't eat three meals, and I chronically deal with physical pain and of course I am in pain today. My T thinks my pain is related to my mind.yet not entirely. She has seen me over two and half years so she may be on to something. Just wondering if anyone else struggles like this? How do you know what you want over your parts? Or is there compromise? What would it look like? Feel so alone my T is all I've got. And she of course isn't available all the time. So my thoughts go around in my head bouncing off the same ideas and wants that I can't see clearly enough to even know if I am in most adult part of mind now. Thanks