Like you've mentioned about things in your best interest do you attend any ED support groups in your area? Do you find them helpful? Or have you been to a dietitian or nutritionist? If so what are they like? Do you think their services would be helpful for others in this forum?

Do you find fighting this ED harder in your 40's as compared to younger people? Or is it easier because of the maturity?

It is great that you are able to talk to your pdoc now. Hopefully he can work with you on finding appropriate therapy and medication to help you since you can now admit you want help. What a milestone to make it to! Actually reaching out for help!! That's great!

Continued luck on this difficult journey to a more realistic body image and healthier eating patterns.