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Originally Posted by SarahSweden
I have a lot of worries and anxiety around whether to continue seeing my T or not. Iīve seen her for about half a year now and now we have a summer break for some weeks. I donīt feel any better and I havenīt made any improvements in my life. Iīve managed to study during this six months but I donīt think that was because of therapy and I donīt feel more strength or other improvements.
Because of depression I think part of it is not to give in and on the other hand I often feel my T isnīt the right one. I foremost miss more of an emotional support and Iīve tried several times to tell my T how I like therapy to be but you canīt change how someone is.
As I will be without therapy if I end this current therapy Iīm not sure what to do. I canīt pay out of my own pocket and my T has also said earlier on that she doesnīt know what I can do. For me itīs nothing about having insurance, Iīm within Swedish public health care, and when referred to one clinic others wonīt just accept you just because you want to change therapist.
Iīm not sure how to think, just spending time in a therapy that I feel doesnīt give any improvements is just making me feel worse. At the same time, with no therapy at all Iīll perhaps get even worse.
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Hi SarahSweden,
I'm sorry to hear of your dilemma. As someone who uses the British NHS I understand the dilemma where you seem to have to take who you're referred to. Does your clinic have more than one therapist like yours?
In the NHS if you are in the secondary service (you have a psychiatrist who may oversee medication and others in the team such as psychologist nurse social worker etc) you can ask to change the main person coordinating or providing your care if you feel the relationship isn't working, just as they can recommend a change too if they feel they personally can't meet your needs. After all you can't get on with everyone.
Have you asked about your options from the clinic, not your T?
When my relationship with my care coordinator broke down I was allocated to a new one.
I was scared it might affect my care, but it seemed to be ok.
In primary care (family doctor level) there is a bit of provision under NHS but less intensive.
The other thing to consider is whether you feel worse after therapy because you have talked about something painful but which needs to be expressed/experienced in order to be able to get past it, but six months is a fairly good time to evaluate.
I'm sorry I can't help more, you are the only one who can really know what is good for you.
Is it worth discussing it with your referring doctor who referred you to that clinic?
If s/he thinks it appropriate they may be able to do something (not knowing your system).
I tend to take the attitude that if it's offered and it might help I will do it in the hope of benefit, but it is a shame to continue something that isn't helping when you could feel more independent.
Maybe how you get on through the summer break will give you a slight answer?
I wish you all the wisdom and luck as you decide what to do.
