I just do not know. It's so confusing.
I have NEVER gone through this severe an "episode" before.

I slept an hour last night, even with increased meds.
I get tired and frustrated and cranky... on edge. Look out!

My body has not given out, but it cannot keep up with the energy of my mind.

I needed to do a lot today. I cannot believe the speed and ease with which I can do everything today. I am zipping through stuff I may never be able to do again, simply because there are times when it's beyond my comprehension, but today it's so incredibly easy. I know what to do and how to do it without reservation, including tasks I have never done before. Nothing gives me pause. My mind is seamlessly zipping along at an IQ I cannot always access. It's strange and fun -- and sad because I know that by tomorrow, I will have no idea of how I did some of what I did. Good thing I took notes.

My emotions are all over the place, I am easily distracted when I try to read or focus. Noises are distorted. I cannot hear anyone on the phone well today, no matter what I try to help the auditory reception.

Docs are changing meds around tonight. Moving some meds to different times and adding Ambien, in hopes I get some sleep. Yes, the elusive sleep.
At this point, I am hoping the changes are not permanent. I am not feeling like "me" because of the level of agitation. I am right on the edge of "something very unpleasant." I have been isolating due to the level of agitation, hoping it will go away.

I am hoping some sleep will help to break the cycle. Please.

I hope to sleep tonight!

May we all rest peacefully tonight!