Your children need you cash, especially now. I know ip would probably not be best given your circumstances but if it will keep you alive you need to do it. You can't give up because of your husband's emotional abuse. You are a STRONG WOMAN. You can make it through this.

I hate to say but I don't know if meds will help at this point. This is situational. The only thing to do is buckle down and get through it, which you can and will. Keep talking to your therapist, as often as you can. Talk to your family and friends. Talk to us. But keep holding on. Your children need you! And personally I wouldn't want to give my husband (if he were like yours) the satisfaction of being right.