I have to admit before I was disappointed and even angry at myself now I realize I have a problem and I need help and compassion for it. The atwork network set me up for volunteer work I was meant to go today but when I woke up I was in a daze and couldn't tell I was in reality even whilst I was showering and etc. To some that may sound an excuse but when you can't tell if the comic book your looking at is a part of a dream or even if your sleep walking well you can say you have some issues. Whilst this has been going on for a while at varied numbered hours in the day this is the first time this has happened whilst waking up. I would say I was in sleep paralysis but my body didn't feel numb just my mind and will I cannot tell if this is one hundred percent me just being somehow awake after a deep delta state I can say this is not normal. I will be definitely calling Atwork and explain why I didn't go to the volunteer work I am hoping they will understand and finally get me an actual work place psychologist not this ring-around-a-rosy ****!