[QUOTE=Humpty Dumpty;5154098]I know it's not what you want to hear but what would really make me happy beyond measure is dying in some sort of "accident" that my wife could collect a huge payoff from so that could supliment my income.

Is money an issue for the both of you? Humpty I know you do not want to burden your wife with your "thoughts" but have you sat down with your wife and shared this with her?