What I have been through this year has finally hit me. Feeling sad, exhausted and traumatised - but still well thankfully. I was so close to death and suffering so much it has really impacted me. Hospitalisations were stressful too. Become suddenly well last Saturday and have been fine but today I couldn't get out of bed and felt really down. I don't think I am depressed as such, just recovering from a very difficult time.