When depressed, it affects everything. I can't get out of bed, I can't keep up on chores, or bathing, can't hold a conversation or enjoy anything. I just wish for death and watch the calendar flip.

Hypo, I might talk too much and annoy people, but I function well.

Mania, I think I function well but I guess I don't according to the people around me. I can get caught up in things, have racing thoughts, paranoid, feel people are following me and out to get me. Very suspicious of everyone and everything. Loud, talk to much or refuse to talk at all when paranoia is too high. Secluding myself, can't be around people, or the opposite, running around talking to any stranger who passes.

Stable it effects me because I live in fear of episodes, medication side effects and government poisoning of the mentally ill. I'm terrified of ending up living in our local state hospital. Lots of anxiety about past episodes and fear of new ones. Doubts on if I'm really mentally ill or if something physical is going on.