I've just recently at the age of 25 started seeing images of being sexually abused when I was younger. I always had an unsettling feeling that something happened to me, but I could never validate it. I went through years of drug abuse, then self injury, promiscuis sex, daydreaming...anything to get away from a dormant past. Now it won't leave me alone and I'm facing it clean (7+ yrs) and with a hypnotherapist.

I haven't had a boyfriend going on SIX years! I worry all the time that I will forever be alone. I don't circulate myself, so I never meet men. And when I do meet a man, I unconsiously sabotage myself. I never feel completely at ease, sex is difficult and unenjoyable and even while being on Thorazine (anger issues) and Paxil (major depression, BPD, PTSD), my sex drive is still OVER healthy. Thinking about a marriage and kids that will never happen constantly gets me down, but because I'm alone most of the day (self employed, barely), I can't stop stressing. Any suggestions? How do people overcome their sex abuse problems to go on and have a marriage and kids?