Friday will be two years since mom died. It feels like yesterday, the memories are back, the feelings are back. She lived with my family and I for 15 years, she was with us through the birth of all my children, I was with her right to the end of her life, staying with her 24/7 making all the medical decisions, it was so hard, so hard to watch her go. So hard to be the one to make the decsions, I thought I had come to terms with this, but the closer that Friday comes, the worse I feel. I can't see her in any other way but the months and days before she died........I feel so lost, and sad, and missing mom!