Hi.
I was previously medicated for depression and anxiety over 15 years ago. Since then, I've made many dietary and lifestyle changes that have mostly eliminated both conditions. But over the past several months I feel myself falling into depression again. My husband moved us from our community to another state, mostly for financial reasons. But because he travels for his job, I am left alone with two children with developmental disabilities and have had a hard time making friends. I consider myself a friendly gal, but I'm sort of a hippie, and I don't fit in here. At all. Rejection like I've never known. I spend many hours wishing I was dead. I don't remember my head ever being this bad before. Of course, I would never kill myself... I have to take care of my two boys. But the lonelinessis overwhleming. I never understood fully what people were talking about when they said they were lonely. Now I do. I know I need help, but I feel so lost. We have no mental health insurance. I was thinking I would see an internist and ask about medications for depression. All those years ago I was on Zoloft. But it annoyed my husband because I had no sex drive. Does anyone have any other recommendations so that when I go in I am better informed? Any help is very appreciated. Thank you so much.