I know that I have depression and I know that feeling worthless and numb are common for people with depression but I don't know how to deal with it anymore. I just randomly have bouts where I feel completely numb but at the same time I feel horribly lonely and worthless. Sometimes I wish that I could just die. But I know I don't want that. It probably doesn't help that I have no one I can talk to because no one I know understands. I usually write poetry or listen to music but it gets so bad sometimes that nothing helps. It's like I am being consumed by the abyss that is my mind. Does anyone have ideas on what I could do? I want to feel better but I don't know how to do it.