When I came out of social isolation, I was very surprised on how much eye contact people make with me, and probably with everyone else.

And how much I look away, always, automatically, unconsciously. Now, I consciously force myself to make eye contact. Especially when someone is sitting next to me and we work on something, they look for me to make eye contact as I speak, it seems. But I look straight ahead. So now I have to practice looking sideways. I don't know what it does for them, what it makes them feel. Every time I do it, I expect them to look away as I make eye contact. They look at my cheek or side of my head, I turn towards them, and they look away. But they don't. They want eye contact. It's just normal people that you work with on a daily basis.

I am not sure if people around me feel better than I make eye contact with them.
I always have this idea I look mad, or too intense, or aloof, or give off bad vibes.

Don't know, really.

My psychologist said that if I don't know something, I should just ask them, and reveal my weakness. Not sure about that. But I guess there's some truth about it, especially if you feel you give off bad vibes if they misinterpret you.