You guys are my support system.. I love you all that post here...I don't want to trigger or hurt anyone..but I so need to post my pain somewhere.. to release some of it..so please forgive me.. if this is too much...

I am so very sad tonight... I have been working with a massage T.. who does bodywork.. with the coordination of my therapist...

I am so so so sad... I went today to the body work guy.. and he asked me to describe my emotional pain.. in my body.. it is what he does.. and I have been doing this.. and it has been OK... but today.. floods and floods of memories and feelings came back... overwhelming me.. and thru the day.. it has gotten worse and worse.

I guess.. I am speechless... the pain to great to even let a little leak out...