I have my worst times when I'm on my period during an episode. It definately shakes things up. I'm really worried about you Cash. I think you should consider IP or at least IOP. I know people need to rearrange schedules to help, but your life is worth it. Please put your life at the top of your priority list. It's hard to do when depressed, but it's the most important thing you can do right now. (((Hugs)))