Hello ChildofTheSea: I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. I'm in quite a similar situation... feelings of worthlessness, depression, often wishing I would just die. Of course the obvious answers are therapy, antidepressant medications, etc. Personally, I'm an older person & I've pretty-much just learned to live within my circumstances. But it's really not healthy & not the way a young person wants to live.

I really think the answer here is to reach out for help in real life... someone you can talk with about how you're feeling. If there is no one in your life you can do this with, then seeing a mental health professional, presumably a therapist, may be what is necessary. Of course, continuing to post, here on PC, can help too. Perhaps other members will have other thoughts with regard to your situation.

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. There are many knowledgeable & caring members here. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!