When is Enough... Enough????

Is it when I am forced back into a horrible memory.. by flashback... to be triggered by who.. what.. a smell.. a touch.. a color.. a sound..

Is it when I am forced to re-live.. the pain.. the memories.. stored in my body... to be triggered.. whenever.. however..

Is it when I don't get to have a "life"... a "real life" because of my past.. pain oozing.. and seeping into my current life.

Is it... when I am soo soo alone.. because my abusers.. made sure.. that I would never be able to connect with anyone one in life.... for me to live in a bubble of isolation..

Is it.. when I feel the shame.. of a lifetime..descend on me in an instant.. to be felt like a blow to my tummy..

Enough.......... is Enough.. I can stand "life" no more.