Hope I don't bring down the mood of the couch but I need support, witnesses etc. really hurting here. I am at my final mid country destination but not without a road trip gone wrong. Maybe some medical peeps on here can help me out in understanding something
Most of the ride with my dad was fine but throughout the trip he had erratic fits of irritability or rage - he was his same asshat self only exagggerated and unpredictable. He is 70 and we have never had a good relationship but I needed help getting my car across country and he offered ( I think his lovely new wife actually pressured him I don't think he'd offer on his own). At the worst point, he almost sideswiped another car by not checking his blind spot. I yelped out dad look out because the car three inches from mine startled me. My dad went off. Never do that again!!! And he raised a hand to threaten to hit me !!! ( he gave me a black eye as a kid). Back at my new apartment he lays into my eating choices yet he and I ate the same things at greasy spoons of his choosing!!! Fat shaming with the threat of violence I finally told him it was best if he left my apartment (after driving 1500 miles). I feel somewhat bad for kicking him out then I hate myself for not kicking the rat in the teeth. What was I thinking that this could be the last chance to have a good memory with my dad. He's never loved me. I think he is a sociopath. I deserve a good dad. I'll never have one. Oops medical question. Can early onset alziemers (sp) cause erratic mood irritability? That is easier to accept than having a horrible human being as a dad