Lol sometimes I don't even know if I have bipolar cause I just find it hard to relate to some other people with it. But I have also been diagnosed schizoeffective, so. My day-to-day life is just extremely difficult. I have moments of enjoyment but I deal with a LOT of strange thoughts, racing thoughts, obsessions, "delusions" (they are very real to me). I have a lot of feelings of extreme irritability, I often feel really angry about society and our culture, and I have bothersome hallucinations. I have times where I experience an "extreme state"...not sure how else to describe it but it's like my body/mind is on HIGH ALERT and it is very scary...I burn my sage and try to ride it out. I am often preoccupied with thoughts of good versus evil. My mood and energy levels fluctuate A LOT. Sometimes I am so tired I can barely move, sometimes I am up at the crack of dawn and can't sleep at night. It sucks.