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Originally Posted by Angelique67
I think you aren't aware of how many virgins are actually on these forums, lol. And even much older than you.
But it's not like a race to the finish, there is no right way or wrong way to deal with these milestones, only your way of right or wrong. So if you decide you don't need it after all, that's still a valid position. Lol, I'm impossibly having my memory cut out of my head. But I made the point, good. 
It still is very valid to encourage you to practise self love. So imagine you have a friend who is exactly like you, and you just love this friend. Treat this friend as if you only just found them, with love, attention, respect, etc.  |
yeah i guess not lol.
it's odd, i'm indifferent about virginity otherwise and i don't give a fart what age others lose theirs, but i hold myself to different standards. someone could be 60 and a virgin, and i would not care. i would not think any less of them. but i guess right now i'm having kind of an internal crisis, because i always told myself no matter what i'd make sure i lost my virginity in my teens, even if very late teens. but if i still want that to happen i have only 4 months to make it happen. let's see... i'm 240 lbs., i never leave the house, i'm socially awkward... not desirable in the least... so yeah, unless i find some way to pay someone it's just not going to happen 'in time'. and if this were somebody else i wouldn't care, like i said. but to me it's loser central... might as well have it tattooed on my forehead or walk around with a neon sign... i'm very ashamed.
to me that kinda says ''least sexiest person alive".
i also just want romance too. i want it even more than sex. i need touch and affection and sweet words, but there is nobody to give that to me. i know self-love is important to, but it just doesn't work when it's from myself, and it makes me a little sad. i don't really want self-love anyway. i really tried at it but i couldn't make the feelings genuine.
it's also funny that you use treating myself like a friend as an analogy, because i don't have any friends either.
anyway sorry if i rambled, i'm very lonely. have cried about it more than once today. so i kinda just talk a lot at whoever gives me the time of day. my mom already blew me off.