My dear t. I just understood something. What you have been doing all this time. You've said that you hold up a clean mirror - yes yes I totally get it now - your mirror, without all the smudges and filters and crap that I used to see myself through - your mirror, reflects back to me, the me that YOU see - and and and - little by little by little by little I have been moving into this place where I am no longer so afraid of being seen.

What an incredible journey this has been!!

I thank you with my whole (not perfect) lovable self.

And I can't say it any better than that.

p.s. I almost emailed this to you just now. But I didn't, because it wants to be said in person. And it shall be, on the 9th!!