I agree with what a few others have said the IP or IOP might be a good idea right now. It sucks people have to rearrange their schedules for the kids but they love you and they would understand without question. It would be far better for you and your children if you get the care you need right now. As for giving your husband leverage, going IP or IOP to take care of yourself would be far more favorable to the court system than letting yourself fall apart. I hope things improve quickly. Hugs.