Well, since the universe hates me in every possible dimension and isn't about to miss a beat on beating me, I got laid off about a month ago. I've been spending some of my time working on some contract work I already had going before my company decided that it didn't need my (or 37 other peoples') services anymore, as well as putting some serious time and effort into scoping another city to live in, as I feel like I'm not in the greatest place for a musician, creative type, and single professional.

I've narrowed the target cities down and started combing for jobs in my profession, but after a bit of combing through ID jobs, it's getting really depressing. There's just nothing out there. There never is. The last time I was out of work, I was unemployed for over four-and-a-half years... I had no more than two job interviews during that whole time, and in the end, I didn't even find the last position I was at. Some headhunter called me up. By that point I had burned completely through my life savings.

I just don't feel like I can do this again. My career has been frustratingly elusive. Even finding openings is drag, let alone finding any opportunities in industries I actually have interest in. I think it's just time to throw in the towel. Just give op on my goal of being a designer.

I just don't know what to do with myself. What to do for work. I need a career change. Everything I'm good at is worthless to society... except the CAD aspects of ID... which I could spend the rest of my life being a CAD monkey. It's kinda depressing. I made $80k/yr. at my last job and was a worthless piece of crap in the dating world. Taking a pay cut is just going to make me even more garbage.

I really hate my life right now...