This therapist seems to make you very angry and upset, and by the sounds of it continues to cause you a lot of emotional pain. I understand that you are attached to her, anyway, but is it therapeutic for you?

I remember you saying something about how people in your country aren't particularly affectionate in general, but I'm sure you could find someone who is, particularly in the field of therapy. There are probably warm, caring and affectionate people who have chosen to go into this profession, no matter what country you're in. People like that are everywhere.

I live in Britain, and as you know a lot of Brits will tell you that people in this country are very reserved, but that's not really true. My university assigned me to a therapist who is the complete opposite of that. She is the most loving and emotionally available person I have ever met. She believes in taking risks by doing things that maybe aren't entirely "professional". She says that she sometimes gets herself into "trouble" in supervision, but it doesn't stop her from doing what she feels is going to help someone. And she is right, because since when has "playing it safe" really made a difference?

I love her. And I am sure that there are similar people out there, even where you live. I think it would be worth it for you to start searching for someone like that.