I am really at the end of my rope. I am going to start from the most recent incident and go backwards.

The other night, the police came to my door at 2am. They were looking for my ex-fiance, who apparently cracked up his car. I made the mistake of telling this to my bf. He came over because he said that he needed the charger for his phone, and proceeded to keep me up for an hour and a half after I planned to go to bed, knowing full well that I had to get up early for work, interrogating me about what happened. In his mind the reason that they came to my house was that I am still talking to my ex. I have a restraining order against the guy. I am certainly not talking to him. I had to tell bf repeatedly to get out of my house and that I needed sleep.

About a week ago, a guy friend sent me a message about meeting up for a drink. BF saw it and flipped out. He hit me in the head with my Kindle, and said it was an accident. I don't think it was. Another time he went through my phone and saw that I had hung out with a guy friend. Flipped out and said that the guy wouldn't be around to see Thanksgiving, and that it was nothing compared to what he'd do to me. Then he said that he was so upset that he didn't remember what he said. He's snooped through my storage rooms, peeked in the drawers in the chest in my spare room - I have no idea what he thinks he is going to find. He's gone off on me because he accused me of playing with myself in my sleep. This is just unreasonable. In his own mind he is right and I am sick of defending myself.

I have tried over and over again to prove that I am a good woman, but it is never good enough. He will just find something else to be mad about. I feel hopeless and disgusted.