This so embarassing. And I feel so stupid for trying so hard.

He always talks about how other women have cheated on him. You know what? I have had guys cheat on me. That doesn't mean I go around treating every guy out there like crap. I don't want to go out with friends because I don't want to feel on edge the whole time. He thinks that I am taking s--t about him when all I am saying is the truth. Right now I don't care if he is the last man on earth. I don't care if no one wants a 41 year old woman with bipolar. I have to end this for my own sanity.