I have felt this way, many times. I think it is a coping mechanism for me. In the long run, it is healthier for me to let these feelings come as they will. I used to feel I wasn't allowed to do that in my controlling marriage.

Therapy and being in a healthy relationship has largely resolved that issue for me. DBT further helped me regulate my emotional response so I can feel and express my emotions in a healthy way.

For a long time, things would happen and I didn't even know how I was feeling. Therapy helped me identify emotions. Thinking of you.