Welcome Noel! So glad you sought support here, you will find it. Just keep posting as you need. You have been through so much. It must have been so traumatic so I agree you need as much support as possible. Do you have a psychiatrist? If so can you see them urgently to assess your situation and medication. IOP is a good idea, unless you are suicidal, then it is best to be inpatient. Keep us updated. I wish you all the best.