How do I cope with being a failure? I forget who I am, lose who I am, so that I don't need to face it(Note that I am on SSI and I spend every minute of my day on the internet).

I hope this isn't what is happening to you, and I wish I had better advice for you. I would tell you, you're not a failure (because to me you don't sound like one) but I don't know if that would change the way you feel....it never does for me when people tell me I'm not these things.