I don't know. I'm SO exhausted. I went to Community Mental Health Services last night for an assessment. I've gone there a couple times before to get admitted to the hospital. But this time I wasn't so sure on going to the hospital, and just wanted help figuring out what to do, and she ended up bringing in a man to talk with me who does DBT(Dialectical Behaviorial Thearapy). So we talked a while, and I agreed to try talking with him before going straight to the hospital again, and saw him this morning, too. But I don't know if I can make it. I'm SO exhausted, I just want to curl up and sleep forever, and I don't know if I'd try it, but it's SO tempting. And I really don't want to fight right now, I'd like to just go to the hospital, not have options so easy to tempt me, have a "break." I feel entirely worn out and like I can't take care of or handle anything. I want away from this state of being so badly.