Everything is just...dark today. Sad, troubling thoughts coming in and out of my mind, but above all, I'm bored. The internet is boring. Music is boring. Books are boring. Even the things I care about are boring, in a sense. I can't make myself care about anything and I just feel so empty, like there's nothing here, under the shell. I hate it so much. I wish I could make myself care, but lately that's too painful. Not long after I start to care, I get hit with so much nihilistic depression and anxiety I can barely function. Knowledge scares me now because it feels like being exposed to any idea at all scares me. And it's not worth it. It actually hurts to care, and it's so short lived.

I don't know what to do, but I can't stand many more days of sitting around and listening to videos and playing the same games over again.