I can tell my mood is trying to go somewhere, I think up, but I can't tell where. I nearly always have June hypomania and didn't this year so this may be that a little late. I hoped the Clozaril was going to get me through it. It's so annoying because I am more energetic and got more done today than I have in one day in so long today but I'm also getting teary at Facebook things that aren't emotional. I'm having trouble sleeping, both falling asleep and getting the same number of hours of sleep I usually do (although I'm getting plenty of sleep by the hours). I'm kind of up, down and everywhere but not severely enough to say it is mixed or even really dysphoric and yet not to one end or the other either. Just edgy, which is so different that usual with the Clozaril that it feels a lot more than I would have considered it before Clozaril.

I don't even know what to tell my pdoc at this point; nothing yet but I typically contact her if things are off for more than a few days and I don't know how to describe this. I'm really glad I made a therapy appointment for this week; I'd intended to take the week off.

My neighbors are setting off fireworks (and have been for what seems like a year) and that's always a bad experience. We live at the top of mountain and the booms echo as they hit the valley so the noise is 4x what it would be (which is way too much anyway since PTSD makes me really jumpy with that kind of noise).