I'm thinking of working 3 jobs honestly. My mom is majorly stressed and angry. I really screwed up. I need to get this stuff straight. I've applied to 4 jobs tonight alone.
I went to college so I could get 1 descent paying job, which hasn't happened. Now I have student loan debt I doubt I'll ever pay off, interest keeps accumulating. Back tax debt, thanks to the con who I stupidly trusted to do my taxes last year and underreported my income so he would have more gambling money. Medical debts, and of course living expenses.
I mean I used to be so hopeful that life would get better. I always believed in the good of people, that things worked out in the end. I'm discovering how foolish I have been. I really don' t know how to handle all this. I'm too dumb to live.
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Son: 14, 12/15/2009 R.I.P.
Daughter: 20
Diagnosis: Bipolar with Psychosis. Latuda 100 mgs.
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