Hello and Welcome
I could put my name to every post here including yours. You're not alone. I have only been a member for a short time and severe long term depression is what brought me here a month ago. In that short time I have found PC so helpful for many reasons: being able to express your feelings, no fear of judgement at the feelings you express, realising there are people out there who understand your feelings and experiences and validate them rather than denigrate and, (certainly not least of all) being able to support and validate others. Sometime the latter point is the most significant.
I hope we can have many talks and support one another.