Thanks for the help guys.

I tried talking to those guys today that I mentioned, well 2 of them. One just asked what I wanted then just went off. The other we chatted for a while but just sat in silence on PS then because we'd nothing to talk about at all. We don't have anything in common anyway. And they haven't messaged me in like 2 weeks. I have to message them to talk to them, they'll never ever message me voluntarily.

I just can't cope. I'm only ever happy for the first 10 seconds after I wake up or when I'm dreaming. I also tend to use TV Shows and Films to escape from reality.

I just can't cope with not being able to socialize without being awkward, quiet, shy, terrified of women, etc.

I used to be fine around other people up until I was 13. I had loads of friends when I lived in the town, and people used to actually want to be around me. Now it seems I'm repulsive to others. I live so far outside of the town too that I just can't go outside and find friends. And I have a reputation in the town from guys from school as being quiet, and boring.