Ok,, I can feel that I am in a level of disassociation because I have even noticed that specific sounds my phone is set to make so I know who is calling/texting I don't even recognize. I don't get much except notification of purchase delivery or things like that, but I set a specific sound for my t's texts and have always known them within the first second of the sound starting and the last few days I notice that I haven't even recognized the sound until the very end or even when I see the name. I also feel the distance from the world and other stuff but there is something really strange the last few days that I have never noticed before.

It is like these crazy thoughts or images pop in my head that have NOTHING to do with what I am thinking about (if I am thinking about something). The best way to explain is with an example. I am EXTREMELY depressed right now and just in that place where I just want to steer into black space. Sometimes my brain will think about things, mostly related to what I think about myself or what is going on with my t right now, but all of a sudden yesterday I had this ridiculous image pop into my head about taking a terracotta pot (for plants) and putting a washer and screw through the hole in the bottom and being able to screw it to a tree and the pot would stay on the tree.. WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

That is just one of the examples of the craziest things that are popping in. It might be a crazy thought, or image and only lasts a second and might even come in the middle of something I was thinking about and I don't even realize it happened until a moment after it is gone.

I feel like my brain has a cord with a short in it that keeps throwing these completely unrational 'things' in there. They don't have meaning, and are completely unrelated to ANYTHING as far as I can tell. I don't know if this is part of the disassociation (I am not sure where I stand on the disassociation spectrum... I do know I have fragmented parts but not sure if it goes completely to DID or not, but I do hear things from those parts and sometimes they do want me to say things to my t so bad and seem to scream things at me but I have never noticed anything like this with them. I have also 'separated from the world at time where it feels the world is outside some type of thick almost magnetic fog,,, so maybe this is part of this spectrum I am not familiar with) or if I am about to have an absolute complete break with reality here. I am actually getting more then a bit scared.

Has anyone else felt like their brain had a short (another way to explain might be like watching a tv program and all of a sudden a part of a commercial from another channel would flash an image or a couple second video and then your right back to your regular program as if nothing just happened). Help, is my brain about to short out completely????????????? kinda more then a little scared by these new things.