Anyone else more sensitive because of BP or possibly BPD? Whenever I disagree with someone and it upsets me, i dwell on it for days. I cry. I stay in bed. Or when my BPD comes out, I fight back in a overbearing manor all to stick up for myself. Now mind you, I am going through a major med change and a severe depression so this makes all this 47386 times worse.

Now couples fight. I don't care who you are, no relationship is perfect and it takes work. When my bf and I get into it or his mother (who is a major trigger for me) buts in, I'm a nervous wreck for days. Just yesterday an issue like this happened. We made up and all... But I woke up feeling like it's still a fresh wound. I obsess over it and my bf can't understand why im so tore up over the smallest of fights.

Then there's my family. They don't understand my MI and see it as an excuse not to work. Whenever i talk to my dad and he brings it up I shut down. Leave. Hang up. Then sit at home and cry for days.

I'm well aware my extreme lack of self esteem is a major roll here.

I guess I'm just needing to vent. Im a nervous wreck, new pdoc has me under medicated, my personal life is a mess. And I feel like it's making my BP worse or is it the BP that makes me so unbelievably emotional? Today is particularly hard and in trying my all to keep it together and not cause a scene[emoji22]

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