Years ago I started a fight with my first husband. I started small, and it grew to a hollering rant. It lasted maybe 10 minutes without him saying a word- me telling him everything that was wrong with how he talked to me. How his mother treated me. The choices he was making on our lives, then I burst into tears and said," and I'm having a miscarriage". He then took me in his arms and comforted me.

When it was done I said,"I am sorry, I didn't mean any of those things".

He said, " I know, I have been waiting for you to blow since your miscarriage started". I learned that even though we can seem inconsistent to ourselves, others can identify our patterns of behavior.

Often I do not know why I am angry, and I need to "get it all out" as you stated, to uncover my actual issue.

I am driven to make sure I am not going to be rolled over and controlled emotionally. With all my blending in to be what the other person needs - there are other times I am a like a tornado. I go to clear things up, and there are no rules to stop my focused complete rewriting of the situation/event/purpose. I will be heard, and I make myself very clear, and I will try to take anyone down who stands in my way.

I don't know if it was menopause, meds, or just a good man - but the past few years I have calmed down and learned to be less antagonistic. I still can be. But it is better. I am learning not everything is a fight, and I am safe and respected in my home, so I don't have to face an issue with my husband like a battle.

I don't like having friends for the reasons of interaction.

If you get despondent due to your changing emotions - know that eventually we all calm down.

Soul sister! Man, what a ride we can be!