Can I get rid of my CPTSD too? Not sure how much that effects my life outside BP. Anyway without BP I would be able to work in a productive, creative career like musician, photographer or writer, and would have finished a degree and some post graduate studies. As it is at 40 I am starting my third degree and I'm struggling already after first year. My relationships would be better too and my marriage would have been saved. Basically I would have a lot more stability, productivity and success.