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Old Jul 04, 2016, 11:15 PM
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Originally Posted by confusedbyself View Post
I think I got confusing in my post. I already know I dis..... (you know) and to me that generally takes the form of heavy zoning out, feeling like I have a fog bubble that the world is outside of and it takes lot of work for me to try to stay 'in' it or listen to people and extremely difficult to answer if I need to. There is also derealization at times.. these are already part of what I have discussed with t along with the 'voices' which I think I made out wrong in my original post because I wasn't focusing on that and just using it as background (the voices aren't like audible, there are just known thoughts and 'hearing' of things that want out of me to the person I am talking to because I am able to stay in control for the most part but know I'm not alone in here as I can even see what some look like (I'm not sure where fragmentation and DID draws the line, so I am currently diagnosed with PTSD w/diss.....).

What I was really looking at with this thread was the strange things that have started happening this last week and I think I might have been incorrect in explaining them also. They are tiny short things that just seem to jump in the middle of something I am thinking or even pop in my mind watching tv or something like that. Just like you would normally think about any topic, but these have no barrinig to life as far as I am concerned (yes, I understand flashbacks and intrusive thoughts, I have both but all that stuff is associated with my life).

That's why I gave the example of the terracata pot. I was just thinking about something and then all of a sudden I had this image and thought of using a washer and screws inside the hole in the post to be able to secure it to a tree. OK, why? where? what? I don't plant. I wasn't thinking about it or anything even related to it. It just popped in and out, having no relationship to anything, anywhere in my life. It was gone as fast as it came and my original train of thought continued. I barely even noticed it and then when I did I realized that I think it has been happening rarely but repeatedly lately.

At the moment, they are not bothersome except in how bizarre they are and in wondering what could be causing such a phenomenom. ......... ok, it just happened.. I am typing this and all of a sudden my brain thinks of train tracks and then its gone. Nothing happened, nothing going on to trigger anything strange (my past issues have NOTHING to do with trains or terracotta pots, so I know its not flashbacks...those come with horrible images I know about). I seriously feel like a short wire in my brain that just lets these thoughts or images slip into the thought path for a second. I don't know, it is really freaky is all I can say and wish it made sense to somebody.
Thanx 4 explaining I just read ur OP and my Vicki's response. sorry u got the vocabulary lecture lol I get em all the freaking time..So Annoying! Newayz... I totally get what ur sayin I can't do nething w/o sum kinda interuption. Grr. The random pic thing. Yup me too! Still weird but I sumtimes if I think real hard... I am like oh yea..I randomly did walk by sum guy puttin up a tree planter in his yard! Cept I never seen a pot planter, using what u said... but same kinda stuff. One time I was talkin to a friend on the phone n outta nowhere, a dumpster. Yup gross smelly open full dumpster in my head. Freaked me out soon much, I rushed out gg n hung up. Bugged me for weeks. Kept thinkin all sorts of mean stuff about myself n my friend. Then I decided to walk a back way to my Ts office that I almost never go....and bam..there it was up against a wall nxt 2 the sketchy spa place that is totally ******** house or sumthin..the gross smelly dumpster! Xactly like I saw in my hd!! Asked T bout it. If it ment nething.like personal bout my feelings or whatever, not she asked me if stuff like that happened b4 or again n I said yea but mostly jus when I'm spacin out n it's sum weird thing but nothin thing too..like a cup or a seashell..so I don't think much bout it. She told me it's prob. nothin important. Jus that ppl see so much stuff all the time n don't even know it, but the brain is a weird wanderer..n catches wayyy more than we know..then it jus floats around up there til sumthin reminds it of sumthin that reminds them of the pic. I guess it's like sum info overload..brain gets all backt up n too hot like when u don't clean ur comp cache up for too long n then it freezes and jumps to strange pgs... like u press back 2 manyxs n nothin happens then it goes all wylly n stops on sum random meme u 4got bout from a wk ago. She said sleep more n less stuff like TV n Internet b4 bed. But I gotta go get my brain scanned in the fall or winter too so maybe she was jus trying to b nice n not freak me out that I might have brain damage or sumthin!! guess jus gotta wait n see. Now I'm giggling cuz this hole convo jus reminded me of fight Club n the movie editin thing.
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