I think a lot about the last six months I´ve been in therapy with my new T and I came to think about how she greets me and how we end our sessions. I perceive those two events as an ingnorant and dismissive behaviour from T:

1. She always goes out to the waiting room to get me (I can´t go directly to her room, we have to pass through a hallway which is opened by staff). She waits by the door and never has she been the one who says "hello" first. Sometimes she hardly smiles but seems to look at other things like the reception desk and I realised that every time it´s me who address her first, by looking at her, saying hello and such.

2. After some sessions I reacted to her hardly saying goodbye at the end but just rushing to her desk not acknowledging me when I was to leave.We then decided that we would shake hands at the end of the session to get a more proper "goodbye". She had done that with other clients too.

But it´s the same phenomenon with that, now when I think back on our sessions, I realise it has always been me who reach out first, who "out my hand", she never does.

For me this is just a subtle way to keep a distance from me and these seemingly small things also say something. I´ll act as stupid as her next time I see her, I won´t say hello when we meet and I´ll just leave without saying anything at the end.

She seems to belive that keeping boundaries this way, or what she thinks she does, has some positive outcome in therapy.

How to interpret her behaviour, is it ignorant and dismissive or is there any other explanation?